Pieces of my life, shameless outpouring on the pixelized surface of a screen. I’ve never had Facebook, twitter, instagram or other social network, it's the first time I want to share widely these very intimate episodes of my life. I’m usually very secretive and discreet regarding my private life but I feel ready and I think this turnaround is necessary, a kind of shock therapy.
My fiancé broke off our engagement 3 months before our wedding ceremony, it was a year ago. It leaves permanent scars. To avoid being engulfed by my grief and drowning in my own tears, I’ve coped with my own weapons, I’ve created a survival bubble, I’ve refocused on myself and as usual I’ve shaken up standards. I’ve organised a solo wedding or self-marriage on a paradise island. I always do crazy and unconventional things which is certainly my main personality trait.
It will take time to be able to swallow, to turn the page properly, to forgive also.
I’m like a phoenix, I reborn from my ashes at every hardship but sometimes we must admit that we are weak to be stronger.
That's why I’ve created this blog. I could evacuate my anger and sadness, highlight my passions and my actions.
To let myself go, to accept the support of my friends, one shoulder to cry on is sometimes all that we need.
You have to know how to forgive to move forward and I'm not ready yet, but everything starts here with you. People tell me that I am strong and brave, that I am a fighter, and if for once I lower my defences for a few seconds, if I accept my defeat to better get up later.
I’m not here to shout to the world that I’m unhappy, I am here to demonstrate that each of us can realise his dreams and be happy without following a pre-established pattern. Shake up standards, get out of the stereotypes, create your life, surprise the utopians, convince the detractors!
Many people were touched and inspired by my experience, that’s why I’ve decided to share my story.
I like the idea to inspire people and change their lives positively. Just as so many people inspire me every day, I also wish to pay homage to them in this blog.
Writing is my means of expression, my safety valve; I let go, I let off steam, I lay on paper what I dare not say.
Maybe you'll recognize yourself in my stories, maybe not.
In this blog, of course I will tell you in detail my solo wedding, but I will also talk about my mood, my favourites and all my follies! A book is also in preparation ...
Thank you to everyone who encouraged me in this project, expressed their reservations and gave their wise advice.
Here is my blog, it's my life, my dreams, my inspiration ...
A very appropriate song for this article: Burden down by Jennifer Hudson.